Thankful for my parents

I am really privileged.

I managed to go through my whole education without me having to pay a single cent. My parents got it all covered up. I didn't need to take on any student loan to pay off my degree. Now, no matter what, my parents ensured that I have a place to live in because our housing loan were all paid for long ago. We are not in any debt and I am totally debt-free. 

So now, my only main concerns that need money will be:

-Food

-Transportation

-Phone bill

-Healthcare (In future just in case)

I'm really really thankful for this. I have a dad who worked so hard and single-handedly earned all the money that this household ever needs. 

-My mom's monthly grocery money

-All four of our education (3 of us are degree holders)

-All our allowances

-ALL expenses are literally paid by my dad omg

I'm really thankful that that had happened

Then, I have the mom who gave us the most warm and tender love and care ever. I have never seen anyone caring for another person like that. She's the most selfless and cutest existence I have ever encountered. She put us first no matter what, even until now, when we are all already adults. 

I had the best of both worlds growing up and Idk why I forgot about that before. 

Then, I have an eldest bro who is the perfect role model for us. He is the best example of a big brother i guess. He is the culmination of Singapore's education system and its value. He showed us the right path and showed us that this is what happened when you do all the right things. I respect him for that, even if I might not agree that his path is what I wanted. 

Yeah, so I am at a really privileged place where I can do what I want in life without much consideration. I have the privilege to be as selfish as I can because my parents ensured that I do not have to worry about them. That is the perfect example of parenting isn't it. 

Well, for the path of my own growth, I have no one to blame except for myself. It's definitely not my parents' fault. They have given me everything that they can. I have all the perfect circumstances by I did not select the right path. I went astray and strayed into the abyss of darkness because of my own ignorance and bad choices. 

So now, I gotta start owning my life and stop being fearful all the time. 

I gotta make choices and do things that I truly think is right and needed.

I have been asleep and trying to avoid life for too long. I think it's time for me to wake up and face the music.

I'm privileged, I am no longer a helpless child or a teenager who still has to be financially dependent on my parents; I am a young adult at the age of 23. I am still really young but old enough to make my own choices. And my parents are still young enough that they are able to take care of themselves. Hence, I am in a really really privileged stage of life. Now is my time to own my life, and unapologetically shine the light that is uniquely embedded into me.